As those words left your lips, it was like a switch had sucked all the air from the room. I couldn't breathe and I had to get out. Stumbling from your bed, I clumsily made my way to your patio door. Finally getting the door unlocked, the cool sea breeze hitting my lips, I grasped the balcony wall. Inhale, exhale. It seemed hours before your footsteps found me there, shaking. Shaking from cold and from my racing heart.
"Did I say something..?"
"What do I want? I don't want to wake up but I have to! I want to stay in this dream!"
Before I can catch them, the tears are spilling over. I reflexively move to smear them away but you hold my wrists tight enough I have to meet your eyes.
"I want to go back and tell you how I feel when life wasn't so complicated. I want you, and this. It's only ever been you!"
But now, I just want to know that I haven't ruined my chance. Being selfish and clingy. Being weak and convenient. I want to know if you meant the words you said.
"Only you.."
No comments:
Post a Comment